Do You Know?

Do you know where you going to

Do you like the things life is showing you

Where are you going to

Do you know?

Do you get what you're hoping for

When you look behind you

There's no open doors

What are you hoping for

Do you know?

Once we were standing still in time
Chasing the fantasies
That filled our minds
You knew how I loved you
But my spirit was free
Laughin' at the questions
That you once asked of me

Do you know where you're going to
Do you like the things that life is showing you
Where are you going to
Do you know

Now looking back at all we've planned
We let so many dreams
Just slip through our hands
Why must we wait so long
Before we'll see
How sad the answers
To those questions can be

Do you know where you're going to
Do you like the things that life is showing you
Where are you going to
Do you know

Do you get
What you're hoping for
When you look behind you
There's no open doors
What are you hoping for
Do you know

Diana Ross - Do You Know

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ma'assalamah

Those days...

I still remember the 'kamcheng'ness between my brother and I. Epi and Sarah

Epi. He's a year older than me, that's why we are so close like 'belangkas'. I would follow everything that he does. The reason why we are so close besides the age factor is...because we were alienated from our two elder sisters, k.yong and k.ngah. WHY?? Because we were annoying! hahaha. Until now, I think that I am annoying, ngeh3~

My brother likes to imitate the 'bebelan' or anything that he does not like to hear from the two sisters, plus he likes to 'menyibuk' with the girls thing. Which k.yong and k.ngah thinks that's annoyed them. And me? Because I'm the queen of tears, haha. *Well everyone knows that* 

So, it's like we are unimportant to them. So, we made our own way.

We played together, sleep together, and solat together. He plays what I play, and I play what he played. But, he does not play Barbie, hehe. Oh oh! Because he's afraid of it, ahaha. It means, I played what boys played and so does he in the other way around. But one thing that I couldn't do is 'panjat pokok', haha because I am afraid, thinking what if the tree trunk broke and I fall? Oh no no...tp rugi lah den xdapek nak meghaso. 

What do you expect when girls do the boys' activities? Of course the tendency for me to cry is high right? (tear-ry lady) Sbb lasak kan..haha. But, one thing that makes me proud of him is, he will first to say sorry. I still remember the dialog:

"Ok, ok, Epi minta maaf. Salam. Salam. Ustazah kata tak baik gaduh-gaduh, kena minta maaf balik, kena salam. Minta maaf ye." 

Haha, tercengang den dongar. Well, I'm a person that easily comforted, so we played again like there's nothing happened. And until now, he will say sorry first. Somehow I think, he does not hold his ego for women..thumbs up!

Talking about sleeping together, I still remember one night I suddenly cried (well, for a person yang kuat ngigau dan kuat bermimpi). I don't know if I cried too loud or what, but he woke up and say,

"Dah..dah, jangan nangis. Shh...xde apa2.." and he pat his hand on my shoulder..haha. I would say that he is sooo sweet. Hahaha

Those days...(smile) I still remember and missed the moment bro!

When it comes to Solat, the funniest thing I discover about him is...He does not recite Al-Fatihah after the takbiratulihram. He prayed like this,

"Ya Allah lindungilah aku daripada Syaitan-syaitan...blabla..." HAHAHA! Adoii

However, the meaning is almost close to the translation of Al-Fatihah. That was when he is at the age of 7 if i'm not mistaken. 

To share everything might be too long for this entry. Plus I have exam tomorrow and on Tuesday. Both are killer papers...and I laid back and relax, hehe. 

That's the most precious memories that I won't forget. FOREVER. 

Those days...I will wish for the time to freeze, but the time won't stop. Ticking and ticking. So here we are, 22 and 21. Oh, and I still remember when you are like 5 or 6 (I don't remember), you called me 'Ayah'. Ayah? Hahaha, Should be Sarah, but you missed the S and your R turned to be Y.

Those days...(smile)

Till then, ma'assalamah ^__^